What's your Dream??

It's a slightly philosophical short love story which brings out one of the subtle truths about life, love and dreams. Enjoy.

We were friends, the kind of friends who can be called as best friends. We studied together, sat together in classes and even ate together on occasions. She made it clear to all our classmates that we were nothing more than 'best' friends - to prevent any kind of misunderstandings - but nevertheless we did share a special chemistry.

She was sincere, smart and beautiful; God bestowed her everything a girl could desire. While me, I was just a naive and immature kiddo', as she used to address me. Sitting by her side, I could not find anything more important than adoring her. She didn't notice it, and even if she noticed it, she didn't give it much attention. Perhaps, she had become used to such stares once in a while courtesy to her being only one of the few good-looking girls that my college possessed.

She was a dreamer, with big ambitions for her small-yet-exceptionally-sharp brain. Small in comparison to the big-box-of-mud affixed over my neck by the Almighty and sharp which was quite evident by the streak of her academic achievements ranging from medals in International Olympiads to scholarships from foreign universities.

While, I was still struggling to find a place under my feet - to find my ambition for life. I often found myself busy finding my 'purpose of life' instead of studying at times before the examinations and letting mediocrity overshadow every aspect of my personality. God only knows how we managed to become best friends - it was due to our common interest in dramatics, I guess!

Once, we were sitting in the library and as always, she was helping me in fighting with books when Samarth, a batchmate of ours, came towards our table. He had been a good friend to her, and so to me.

"Hey Deeksha, can I borrow a minute from you? I want to talk about something in private." Samarth said.
"What's so private that you want to hide from Harsh? If you wish then say it in front of him or I am not interested to hear."
"Okay, please don't get angry. This may seem odd but if I don't commit it to you, I would become a maniac for sure. Deeksha, I like you, in fact, I love you. This feeling has captivated me ever since we first talked. I am crazy about you." He said shyly.

I didn't know why but I felt chocked from inside, as though someone had cut my tongue and flushed my brain with chloroform. In a fit of blankness, I realized that I too was crazy about her - madly crazy - and I just could not afford to lose her.

"What's your dream?" Deeksha asked, in a serene tone, showing no particular reaction at all.
"Oh...yeah...obviously, my dream is to be with you always." He stammered nervously. I was dumbfounded seeing what she was upto.

"Samarth, I really respect your feelings for me. But you're not the kind of guy I would want in my life. I'm sorry." She said calmly. He didn't say a word and left the place.

"What? What was that?" I asked, puzzled.
"What?"
"How could you be so cool all throughout? And, how could you judge a guy with just one question? You're strange." I said.

"For me, a goal-less lover is the category I detest the most. I want somebody who is clear about his dream - his aim in life - because I believe that one can't understand what love means if one has not experienced it for himself - for his ambitions and his dreams. The kind of love which Samarth had for me would not last long, since it was mere infatuation. His only ambition was to get me and the day he succeeds in that, I would lose importance in his life because he will become dream-less and complacent with himself." She said.

I was lost in her words. Her every word did a silent work of crushing my dream of someday conveying my feelings to her. 'I was just a mediocre for her!' My inner voice yelled inside me.

Months went by, my fondness for her grew exponentially while my self-confidence plunged down, because in the meantime, she rejected four more proposals as they could not satisfy her ideology. The thought, 'I was not good enough for her!' pervaded my mind all the while.

Three months later
"Hey, I got selected for the International Photonics Conference to be held in Germany. I would be leaving on the next Sunday for two weeks. The best part is that the institute is funding me for the trip." She announced to a group of friends, me included in the group.

"Wow, cheers!" Everyone in the group reciprocated, but not me. I was definitely happy for her but inwardly I knew that I would miss her, miss her like hell. But, I was no-one to take more importance in her life than her dreams and her ambitions. 'Best friends' is a silly term to categorize the people who are important to you but not very special to you.

Time for her to go came soon. I went to the airport to see her off and bid her a goodbye hug with a tearful smile, which said more than what my words could. She seemed happy and smiled back in the usual way saying, "I'll miss you kiddo'."

"I'll miss you too." I managed to bumble.
"Promise me that you'll study hard." She said pulling my ears.

I promised her without reflecting on her words being completely lost in her eyes. How could she not notice that I like her? It had been more than five months of our friendship and it seemed like a lifetime of my fondness for her.

The two weeks passed like months and her thoughts clouded my mind all throughout. My feelings for her didn't know how to apply brakes. I was in love with her, though I knew that I had nothing in myself to complement even a trace of her talent, intelligence or beauty. I was a goal-less lover, after all!

She came back having rocked the international conference with her brilliant presentation on Quantum Optics. I was more than proud of her. The moment she reached the institute, she called me, "Hey kiddo', am back! I so much want to meet you."

"Hey, you know what I am so proud of you! I have so many stories to relate. I am in the library, trying to battle with the books but with no success on my side. Where are you? I'm waiting for you here. Come soon, otherwise I'll kill you!" I said in my seemingly excited voice.

Ten minutes later
"Hel..looooo!" She said and tapped my shoulders from behind.
"Hey! I missed you like hell." I exclaimed and hugged her heaving a great sigh of relief.
"I missed you too. You know what? I've realized something!" She said calmly.
"What?"
"That I love you." She whispered into my ears. I was flabbergasted. My feet started trembling. My heartbeat rose up. Sweat mixed with tears suddenly adorned my cheeks.

Taking a deep breath in, I gathered myself a little and could utter just one question, "What's your dream?"

"My dream," she whispered, "is to make you dream!"

what is it??

"Love doesn't Require two people to look at each other ,it just requires two people to look at same direction"
May be all of us have heard this quote a thousand million time,but in real life we haven't practiced it more then twice or thrice,No one can say they have done it always because all relations can't run on that stuff.Relations have tits-bits with it always be it husband -wife,lovers or even brothers and sisters and because of that if we run away from each other its bad,we reach to conclusion that we should leave everyone,get isolated,go suicide or breakup with the next person and ask them to get lost.
The Relation that you carry should always be firm like a rock,these fights,crying and all are parcel of relations ,if relation is always romantic and happy it leads to stagnancy,no music will be left in your love..but real relation stands strong if you get some twist and then also you stand as one entity that makes life beautiful,you have to just make your love pure.

I felt something today that may be never i could express with any of my blogs,i started writing this blog to share somethings that comes deepest from me,but have to stop it all again,i dont know till when,i dint loose me,but told me how much i understand things..
When someone questions you"for You a year is not sufficient to understand",i couldn't give answer then,and will never,today i am running out of words may be i need to retrospect again and again!!!

and only one thing comes to my mind"what is it??,what is it??"

3 Idiots or 3 new Idols

"An Overwhelming performance of Aamir Khan,Madhavan & Sharman Joshi",
"Another mind-blowing direction from Rajkumar Hirani after Munnabhai and its sequel",
"A 5 star performer."
These are the some of the title comments for latest blockbuster grosser "3 Idiots".but do you think is it deserving that.Inspired from Chetan Bhagat's "Five point Someone",which is itself his frustation from IIT,he picturised in his book.The Movie just shows the education system is full of idiots and nerds who don't know how to teach or in short questioning our premier institutions not just IIT's & IIM's but your college too.Do you think is the reel reality a real reality,i myself have never faced any teacher like VIRUS,where he flaunts "i went to lecture next day morning after my son's death",i accept there are quite fanatics ,but not all and you can't proclaim the bloody system is fraud and of no use.I can see movie's large effect on entire crowd now people have started calling the most studius guy in class as "CHATUR" or "SILENCER" and they are proclaiming themself as Rancho ,i accept even i did it for two days,but the ground reality is far from what movie wants to show us.Our Education system is still graded among the best of edcation system for Graduation and schooling.The Most funniest thing about the movie is it looks like "TEEN-TAARE ZAMEEN PAR",where its about 2 Idiots.The only factor behind movie groosing up is its controversy and teen landing for movie reason we think our college and school sucks and we should start "IGNORE"ing or we need reforms.
See All of us can't be RANCHO it was cakewalk for him,not for us .i dont mean we are like RAJU or FARHAN but majority is Midyocker students ,we need to work hard ,the real knowledge is i books not in 3 Idiots,that is what we need to understand.So its my suggestion to vocme out of movie mania and take life how you should take it,'Deal it with confidence ,with Best of yourself,and it always leads to a successfull life".


so my rating goes as follows:

Entertainment-5 star
Inspiration -ZERO.
1 Last thing as statuory warning

"Don't Try This in Real Life,its Injurious,REEL & REAL Life are Entirely Diffrent"